Celebrated Nigerian author Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie has opened up about her struggle with depression and how it temporarily silenced her passion for fiction writing.
In an interview with CNN Africa, the Half of a Yellow Sun writer described depression as a “constant shadow” that left her deeply unhappy and unable to write.
“I tried to distract myself. I said yes to many more things than I ordinarily would because I just thought the writing is not happening. Okay, why don’t I just go and give the speech? And part of it was also, maybe if I go, then I’ll get inspired… but then I wouldn’t. Then I’d come back and be miserable,” she said.
Adichie explained that during this period, she leaned heavily on reading, particularly poetry, which she credits for helping her reconnect with language.
“I read a lot more poetry in that period because I think poetry really helps with language. But also, in the end, it’s just about waiting and hoping. You’re not in control of this thing,” she added.
The novelist also reflected on her creative process, describing it as spiritual and deeply rooted in inspiration that feels ancestral.
“There are stories that are, so I call it the ancestors and the spirits speaking to me. So they’re really speaking to me now. And I’m very happy to be running around and singing and dancing for this novel, Dream Count, because it means a lot to me,” Adichie said.
Having overcome her struggles, she expressed gratitude for completing and publishing Dream Count, which has resonated strongly with readers.
“I’m grateful that I finally finished it. I’m grateful that it’s out. I’m grateful that it’s found its readers. I’m grateful that, in some ways, really, honestly, it’s kind of everything I hoped it would be,” she said.
Adichie’s candor highlights the often unseen struggles behind creative work and underscores how resilience, patience, and a return to the basics, like reading, can reignite passion after periods of silence.
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